What A Mess I Am
I cant seem to get rid of this disease. Once and for all I would like too, but when Im not drinking I feel so otherworldly and anxious that it seems to be the only thing to relax me and make me feel normal. Does anyone get like this when there not drinking? It feels like im doomed with this forever. My longest without was 2 weeks. I cried earlier tonight and even had my tough ex marine dad crying too when I told him all I was going through.