Me too.
Why?
I'm tired. The baby slept terribly last night, so I didn't sleep at all. It is lonely in our house without my AH, even though 80% of the time, when he IS there, it's like there are TOO MANY PEOPLE. I know my decision is for the best, and probably the last & only way to get through to him, but it still seems like everyone is watching, judging & criticizing me. I am not doing this because AH is a horrible or even bad person, I'm doing it because I can't take the selfishness or being taken for granted anymore. I still feel like a harsh, unmoving douchecanoe. As it is, our relationship has put gaps between me and my family, and some of my friends, so I too feel not particularly loveable, and that includes the GD dog who prefers AH.
So...nutshell...just a lot of Friday word vomit to let you know you're not alone, Carmen.