knowthetriggers

Hi Life. I have been in your shoes and yes, it bites. I was so consumed with what my X and his pregnant fiance were doing I could barely breathe. I became physically ill over it all. To see them and how "happy" they were it was heart breaking. I too shut out people that were good to me, lost some good friends along the way.
Eventually I HAD to let it all go. No we were not married and no there were no kids involved but I felt the same way you did. Bitter, anger, hate. I had a small group of friends and my family rally around me to support me thru this hell I was in. When I finally decided to break free it felt as if the entire world was lifted off my shoulders. It was hard but I was able to move on.
I hope you can find the strength to move on, not just for your sake but for the kids.
Life is way too short to spend it consumed with bitterness, anger and hate.

Tight, tight hugs to you!!!