Hi all. Thanks for the response. I am indeed a very angry person. We will have been split 2 years in may 2015. I don't understand why I am still angry. The ex before him I was with for 11 years and I wAs over him within months. The recent ex hubby .... It's still killing me partly becAuse originally I never got to hear his business as no contact with kids. Now he has contact I hear it all from my kids.
How do I make myself happy from inside knowing he hAs got off Scott free. 18 months of counselling and alanon due to the horrific verbal abuse that my older children and I experienced from his hands. And him...... He gets to move on and be hAppy. I have been destroyed and am emotionless. I try so hard . I pick on my partner sometimes relentlessly , dump him and he comes running back. It's cruel and this is NOT me. Treating him mean like my ex hubby did. Why am I so cruel, cold and heartless. I don't want this life anymore.