So about 4 days ago I told him we needed to separate and I left.
However I really miss him. I'm feeling so sad and I didn't want it to end this way.
I'm sorry that it had to come to this. And I'm sorry that this hurts so much.
But I'm not sorry you did it. Not by a long shot.
When we love someone like you love your husband, there is a really powerful urge to go above and beyond in trying to fix that person. But the sad truth is you can't fix him. No one can, but him.
Sometimes we're forced to do things we don't want to do but have to, even when it hurts like hell. Emotional pain sucks. Sometimes, we can't avoid it.
But what we can avoid, should we so choose, is being in situations where we are totally compromised. And that's what you did. You removed yourself from a situation that over time would have compromised you to the point where you'd probably break down. That took a lot of strength, Carmen, and I commend you for it.
Stick around. We're here to support you.