Originally Posted by findingme
I knew what I was getting myself into (well, sort of) ... I knew he was an alcoholic .... that was his true self .... because it had been so for so many many many years.
I could blame him! However, I allowed it to happen! This was who he was/is ... I just refused to believe it and thought I WILL CHANGE HIM ... wrong! Can't! Found out years later and with my OWN addictions to boot!
Bingo! I'm right there. I knew who he was, but thought he would change (didn't think I'd change him, well, mabye I did :-( ) Now I'm here, accepting the realities. He is who he is. I don't want to change him, but I don't want to be with him either. I feel bad for that. I feel like I made a promise I can't keep. Kind of feel like a failure.
It's tough. My heart is really breaking.