The no contact on my part is KILLING ME. How do I fill up all the time I used to spend speaking to him or texting him? I have strong urges to talk to him. He was my best friend and I talked to him about everything and anything.
It's like overtime my brain forgets all the BAD and just remembers only good. I know he's caused a lot of damage but why can't I remember the bad enough to MOVE ON.
Today has been worse than others. I found myself spending more time wondering what he's doing, wishing he would contact me first, worrying if he's found someone else. Why do I want to speak with him so badly?
