"I need a better plan"
What is your plan? Do you have one? It really does help having something in place, the simpler the better.
I laughed at Brain's "in all my years of being a genius" because I saw myself in that comment. I over think everything. I got disappointed in myself all the time. "I'm too smart for this. I should be able to figure this out." By being so smart about my drinking and then attempts at quitting, I researched, rationalized, explained away, justified, denied and didn't get anywhere. I thought I was too good and too smart to be an alcoholic. I had a graduate school degree, a job, a house, friends. None of that mattered. When I kept it simple "don't pick up that first drink under any circumstances" and then made an uncomplicated plan on how NOT to do that, I started adding days.
You can do it.