Originally Posted by
Winterkat 
I'm so tired of getting it under control,
When I think about the term "surrender" in regards to recovery, I think of surrendering control. We expend so much energy to keep alcohol is our life while at the same time, fearing the effort it takes to get sober.
That's not the case. Drinking and the cycle of misery it brings takes way more effort. You can't control alcohol, drinking. So surrender to recovery.