Hi Kath, I like what Carlotta said. If you know that you run into trouble at 3 p.m. come on SR at 2 p.m. and start reading and posting. I start by checking out the threads when I first wake up too. Sets the tone for the day.
I used to wake at 3 in the morning too. Angry that I drank again. Feeling like crap. But then drinking more to keep from going into withdrawal and to pass out again.
When I got sick of it, I didn't really want to stop but knew I had to. The thought of forever was too much so it was easier to say "Just for today, i won't drink".
You can do it. Welcome back.