I'm awesome at failing
Yep I'm back again. I want/need to give up the drink. It's been 20 years and I am just tired. I'm in my usual rut waking up at 3am swearing to myself I'll quit. I'm on the right track until about 3pm when I'm starting to convince myself that one won't hurt but that one ends up being one bottle. I usually go one to two nights a week not drinking and use to thnk that's ok. I hate that people know me more that I've had a few than not!
I want to quit completely but reality is I know it's hard for me so I'm going to take one day at a time. I just can't think a year ahead. Yep I'm really disappointed in myself for all my failed attempts. So I'm going to use those to get thru each day. I eventually want to actually feel proud of myself for a change!