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Old 03-21-2015, 10:55 AM
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Originally Posted by kzaug2014 View Post
Okay, not sure what's happening w/me exactly???

I feel great today...happy & nearly feeling like a brand new person! I would say "feeling like my 'ol self" again, but my old self was always doing drugs..uuhgg lol! No, a new person!

Anyhoo, I got up bright & early ( which I've come to like, unlike earlier this mo., when I would wake up early & say "wtheck! It's only friggin 7am!" Lol! ) Posted a few captions here @ SR & put in an old 80's hair band dvd in to listen to!

This is when something very strange happened to me! I will give a lil background 1st.

For approximately 15yrs., prior to my drug use & abuse, I drank every wkend! I really can't say that I was an alcoholic, because when my hubby became a Brittle Type 1 Diabetic 11yrs. ago, I just quit. It felt more like a bad habit, than anything! And, after reading so many horror stories here @ SR ( which feel more like my drug addiction stories ) I just don't know? I hope this makes sense?

So, when I was ( & still am ) listening to my old fave hair bands, I felt ( feel ) like going out & partying! Wtheck? A 15yr. old trigger? Huh?

Thing is I really don't want to party. I'm far too old for those shenanigans ( will be 49yrs. old this wk. ) But, I do want to be able to listen to my music w/out feeling this way!

Does anyone have a clue? Because I sure don't!
We all have feelings/associations with music. Music is a strong adhesive to memories and activities associated to them. Chances are your dopamine levels increase with this particular song etc..iit happens a lot..but temporary.


Ever notice sometimes we change a station if a negative memory is tied to a song?
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