Welcome ... we could start a stopped at 40 group I think?! That was always my plan but then I figured out I didn't even want to wait anymore. For what? I am 39 and this is my year to say goodbye to that guy. I will turn 40 this summer sober. How's that for celebrating the beginning of the next chapter? I absolutely identify with your situation and the simple scientific fact that as we get older, it gets harder to bounce back from an alcohol binge session. I was also a binger, there was no social glass of wine out to dinner with friends, it was a case of beer, drank quickly, usually alone, to pass out. Stay close to SR ... it has been a great resource during my early days.