drink or don't drink, it's your choice, you're an adult.
If you want to quit drinking for good, though, you'd do well to rethink your concept of "trigger" , it's not helpful to think of it as a get out of jail free card, not my fault ,what can I do?, look a trigger. They are going to hold that tournie next year too. Drink if you want, but you can't apologize for it and fluff off the responsibility of choice by calling "trigger".
Wish you well
Ps the apologizing and responsibility are to yourself, not the readers here