Originally Posted by
ClearMind 
Yeah I'm beginning to agree.. I don't think it's anything complicated. Just a steady progression of those with possibly a predisposed genetic composition. For me, anyway.
I should perhaps add that the reasons why alcohol has been so appealing to me do matter if I am not to live a cycle of relapses, which I have for many years. I suspect it is to do with its effect on my experience of depression and alcohol's ability to lower anxiety levels . The bummer is of course that after a while your anxiety levels go through the roof when one is not actively drinking. A real ratcheting effect.
Anyway to that end I am seeing a specialist addiction counsellor and hoping to gain more insight.