Oh immri....what a great post. You've described the roller coaster ride of early sobriety so well. I don't know how the people around us can even put up with us during that phase where we're like a rubber ball launched into a small room with concrete walls...up, down, sideways and all over. What your going through is all part of this crazy journey, so just keep doing the work. I'm only 4.5 months into my own sobriety, but I can already tell you that on the other side of all that turmoil is a place of serenity that will make all the work and craziness totally worth it.