Thank you all for the kind words and suggestions. I am so greatful to all of you on SR. It means EVERYTHING to be able to honestly vent and to get honest feedback.
A little time to cry it out and have another talk with my husband and cry it out some more and I am feeling better.
He has suggested that I not be so hard in myself and to find an outlet--a hobby. I agree and I am going to try.
I do have a question, what is a sober plan?
My plan every day is to wake up and not drink. I try to enjoy the day, my family, my errands, etc. and this early in recovery it's repeated daily.
Should I have a plan for months down the road?