43 days. still struggling
I haven't updated in a while, thought I'd make a quick post. 43 days is great and I'm really happy about that, but I'm still struggling. A LOT. It feels like I'm forever stuck in the first week of withdrawals. I know it's not instant, but I can't help but be jealous of those reporting feeling great after just a few short days or weeks of recovery when simple, everyday things like walking to my kitchen for food or showering almost cause me to pass out half the time. Yes, I've been to the Dr and yes I'm getting it checked out, but its frustrating. I believe I'm also experiencing a variety of harsh paw symptoms which are only adding to the mess that is my life. It makes me want to drink because I want that normalness..I want that comfort even if its short lived. I almost drank over it today. Not sure how I avoided that one. But I'm trying. I am. And I will continue to try. I'm just getting no where.