Theuncertainty thanks. It sadens me to hear your story and I'm sorry for what you went through. It is nice to hear your experience. My family are in the uk I'm in Australia. I feel I. CAnt talk to them as they would worry. I would be embarrassed again I don't want them to be let down by me. When I day I wish I had family I really wish I had practical help from them. Someone to help me clean up the consent mess 6 kids make. Someone to take the kids to the park while I sort out the bills. You know. Someone else I can rely on. Really rely on.