For much too long I looked for help and support from our friends and families, and even doctors, who didn't have a clue about this disease. I didn't understand and never had heard of Licensed Addiction Counselors.
Walking through the doors of my first Alanon meetings, and also finding a counselor for myself, was really hard and I kept thinking I didn't need it. Yet there was what I needed to start healing. Looking back, my brain was addicted to how things were and kept wanting to control and fix things in our lives.
Once I started to truly reach out for help for myself, not him, then things started changing.
Baby steps. One day at a time.
