Maybe there's other stuff too.. Reaching out I find hard.. Was only child with hardly any family.. Have learnt to be self sufficient to the point of isolationist.. Asking for any kind if help makes me feel queasy! Think that puts a lot of pressure I.
I found it hard too...but I did it cos this alcohol problem is immense. I needed help, and there's no shame in that.
Just because we've always been a certain way doesn't mean we have to continue being that way
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