Originally Posted by
JimdiGriz 
...What to do in those situations.. I knew I couldn't do that work unless I rewarded myself and pushed through the fatigue and illness..
Pure addictive voice. Of course you could have pushed through without drinking. But because you hadn't taken drinking completely off the table, that was the easiest and most attractive option.
When you are done drinking, for good, and truly committed to quitting, you will find you can cope without it.