StellaPolaris,
Good on Ya, as I have heard the Aussies say. I struggled for what seemed like a long time after my separation from my alcohol addiction. That may not seem like an encouragement, but from me it actually is, because thru continually and daily (actually minute-to-minute many days) working my program, and with help from my AA Sponsor (and AA people that have grown into great friends), the MIRACLE happened. I am FREE from the Obsession / Drinking / Craving cycle that completely controlled my Life, my Thoughts, My Emotions, and what I did not even consider, My complete Spiritual Deficiency.
So, Good on Ya Stella... and that Good (for me) came from the Spiritual Condition and the Grace of God I received from working the 12 Steps of AA. I now experience a richness of experience that Alcohol and Drugs kept me completely devoid of.
RDBplus3...Happy, Sober, and FREE....and I Pray that the Miracle will be revealed in you as you continue to trudge the Happy Road of Destiny