I really appreciate the support and positive vibes. I really need this right now. And no, I don't have family.. I'm close to his and he was my best friend and really the only person. I had to turn to. I'm trying to keep my head up and not let him suck me in. It's very hard when he was my one and only and I'll never stop loving him. I hope and pray he will get better and that we can continue our life we always planned to have together. I know he will call next chance he gets and I'm really not sure if i should answer or not. I want him to have a peaceful mind finishing up his recovery there, but he also needs to know I'm not putting up with that kind of behavior. I'm still not sure how to handle it yet..