Yesterday went pretty well, but I'm struggling today. Some physical stuff, but mainly I can't stop thinking about drinking even though I don't want to get drunk. I like the mental clarity I'm experiencing right now. I know it's my AV trying to convince me that some alcohol now will make me feel better, which may be true in the short run, but I've seen this play before and know how it ends. So no booze even if I have to fight one minute at a time. I've been on SR almost all day, which means my work productivity is nil, but I can live with that. I'm also making sure that I'm hydrated and well fed.
Thanks SR community; you've been very helpful today.