I can't say I am grateful that my life was a mess and unmanageable BUT I do know that without the madness of my AH I would have never stepped into an Alanon meeting.
I would have never realized just how sick my mother was (she is not an A, she was raised and abused by one).
I would not have realized that my sickness ran deeper than my AHs drinking.
I would not have the resources or the will to transform my attitude and repair my damaged thinking.