hi tear - i hope you find something that works to assist you. many do succeed on their own but usually have a plan of some sort and i think the different recovery programs assist us in finding tools which we can mold into a plan that works for us.
posting and reading on SR has become one of my tools.
i wasn't able to do this much in early sobriety but as things morphed into real recovery this is something that helped me. instead of focusing on what i was giving up i instead put my focus on what i could attain. building a sober life. something new to achieve. something to add to my existence vs something being taken away.
just some thoughts... sober travels guy!