Hello, I thought I would post this in case it is helpful to anyone, or in case anyone has any reaction or helpful comments for me. I decided to quit drinking (attempt at "permanent") after drinking on Jan 12. I decided I would keep track of my days, and ultimately decided to keep track of any drinks I had, to see if possibly (hopefully, please, please) I could maintain a controlled drinking lifestyle. To be crystal clear, I only drink at night, although left to my own devices, that would be every night. A standard night before Jan 12 would be between 4-8 drinks (beer, wine, vodka). I would generally then be tired, sleep and get up to live a functional life day until 5 pm. The whole point of this post is to show some progression (regression) back to my old ways. The number next to the date shows the number of drinks (blank is zero). Each day has its own story, until the end when I was just sort of given up, back to every night, and at that point, heck what's just one more night, since I've already failed. I hope this data confirms in my own mind that I should never go back. You can see how it started relatively slow, an effort to have a couple beers, then a few days off. Later on it becomes a little more frequent, maybe every other day. Then the past weeks it was every night. Anyway, maybe this is useless, but it helped me. Hopeful now that March 2 was the last. Im on day 2 now
1/12/14 ...8
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1/14/14
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1/25/14 ...6
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1/27/14
1/28/14 ...1
1/29/14
1/30/14 ...2
1/31/14
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2/4/14 ...3
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2/7/14 ...3
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2/9/14
2/10/14 ...5
2/11/14
2/12/14 ...4
2/13/14 ...3
2/14/14
2/15/14 ...4
2/16/14
2/17/14 ...7
2/18/14 ...6
2/19/14
2/20/14
2/21/14 ...5
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2/23/14 ...5
2/24/14 ...3
2/25/14 ...5
2/26/14 ...5
2/27/14 ...5
2/28/14 ...6
3/1/14 ...5
3/2/14 ...6
3/3/14