Hello Depp, and welcome to a great place for friendship & encouragement.
Like Dee and Anna, I was close to losing everything, including my life. I had multiple serious problems, all due to drinking. I'd been at it for decades and it was taking it's toll. When I came here I'd been drinking every day for a long time. I couldn't imagine life without it. Yet it was making me sick and miserable - never helping me cope. I had to give up the idea that it would ever be fun or relaxing - or an answer to anything. Life is so much better with eyes wide open.
I hope it helps to talk things over here, with people who care and understand like no one else can. We're glad you found us - you can do it this time depp.