Yes, I understand those feelings Happy. As you get some sober days built up though, it does get a bit easier. Keep trying, don't give up. Like Zen said, for me, its easier to just have nothing. I really can't moderate, or taper. I'm all in, or all out.
Thanks Dee for the encouragement. And everyone here, thanks for just being here. Day one is about over. Hope everyone is doing good.