yes and then for the next 37 years (I'm 37 years old) joking around.
I dont think everything else was irritating I think I was rather irritated. and it was pretty uncontrollable sadly till things eased up. Then I got to ride the ups and downs of life with what felt like no seat belt and like i was hanging on by threads. It got easier tho.
The problem was always me tho. yes because of what booze did to me I felt that way but i chose to drink. Then when i got past that initial stuff it was still not good because I lacked any coping skills etc...
It honestly kinda stunk for a good long time I felt like everyting was all my fault and well it kinda was. But I had to learn to go easy on myself that i was making good positive steps and improving the situation.