Thanks everyone! I know luck is not going to get this done. I have pulled out my arsenal of self help books that I'd put away during my sober time and am going through them this morning. I have told my husband that I am going to stay sober this time and he is supportive but not sure how convinced he is. I always convince myself that he's going to be bored with a 30 year old sober wife, but I proved that wrong over those 8 months. He wants to help us both focus on getting healthy. So anyway, I am sitting here with the SMART recovery handbook and am making a plan. :-)