What did you say to your boyfriend and why? (Dont type your answers if you dont feel like you can share).
The reason why i ask is that sometimes alcohol makes things easier to say. Was there any truth behind your words? What do you think you were trying to say when you said those words? Is there anything that is worrying you about your boyfriend?
If there is truth behind your words, then it might be a good idea to sit down and talk them out. Start by saying something like, "I really want to make our relationship stronger so I wanted to tell you how i feel about...".
If you dont think you can just hash them out together you might want to get a counselor or mediator to help.
The good thing about today and how you feel is that you dont have to feel like this again due to alcohol. This can be the end of this craziness.
Whwn you ask is there something wrong with you that keeps you continue to do this despite all the bad things that happen... thats addiction and we are ALL dealing with it.