Originally Posted by
zenchaser 
Strategery I'm worried about me too. Drinking is really damaging me and my relationships. I hurt my family last night. I have to stop for good and work on making things right. There is somthing wrong with my brain that I would keep doing it despite all the evidence of how destcructive. I wish I could crawl into a hole and disappear today.
Can definitely relate with wanting to disappear into a hole after a drinking episode, esp when it affects those you love. I also drank despite being embarrassed etc, since the memory would fade with time. The great thing is that you can use this experience to move forward and why you shouldn't drink.
Dee mentioned one thing on the boards once that really made a difference in my sobriety. He was mentioning that if you're struggling to get 30 days, other options may need to be incorporated to get sober (inpatient, outpatient). Keep hanging in there. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
