Failing at NO contact
So I got loose from my alcoholic gf. She will not call for a while and randomly text how alone she is and tells me we cannot be together. I will call and she sounds very angry and she sounds different than I have ever heard her sound before. It sounds evil. So I am thinking of just blocking the number. I am only five months sober and I feel so mad at myself. Any advice for committing to no contact? I know I don't love her but I think I have been dependent on her to make me feel better about myself. I'm also going through a difficult health problem and I feel very close to relapse. A friend in AA told me this person wants to drag me down. Advice?