Day 5 feeling excited
So every evening I have been thinking about the next day being another day sober and it excites me! Day 5 and I feel good. I am fortunate to not have any withdrawals even though I drank pretty much everyday for 8 years.
I ran into an old friend/neighbor this morning. It was great seeing her and told her we should get together for the kids and catch up. She said that'd be great. She knows how much I drank and she drank too but not as much as me. My mind starting racing, thinking about the future visits wondering if we'd drink if we got together. But I thought about it and thought, if I told her I didn't want to drink, she wouldn't even second guess me or ask why, because that's the type of person she is. She can control her drinking and probably couldn't care less if I did. So I tucked that stupid thought away. And thought planning a girls night playing scrabble while the kids play.
The past 4 days have been good. I have had some minutes of frustration. It hasn't been totally easy. I still think about alcohol. I still cry at the drop of a hat.
I've been having weird dreams the past 2 nights. I've always had weird dreams even when drinking but now that I'm sober, I guess they seem weirder to me or even nightmarish. I even woke up last night and grabbed my hubby tight because of a bad dream. But that actually made me feel good that he was there. He's also been sober (from his DOC) and I'm very proud of him. He told me this morning he was going to a safe place (a friend that is not an addict) because the past few days he's had concerns he might release.
Things are looking good at the moment. Praying it continues.
Sorry to ramble this morning. Just wanted to check in and write.