Originally Posted by FireSprite

It sounds like you are maybe a little jealous that your kids continue to have a relationship with their dad & it's making you feel like the "bad" one as you are the only one NC & "left behind" in your thinking. I hope you can see that them developing a healthier relationship with their dad is good FOR THEM & has nothing to do with you.

^^^^^^^^^^this your right, I have felt jealousy, do feel jealous, not sure their relationship is healthy though, given how much he lets them down and rarely sees them. But I feel pathetic feeling this way. It would be nice for them to have a healthier relationship with him.



Let me ask you a question - what happens if you continue down this path? Can you see yourself becoming sicker than him over time?

Yes I can I already feel as though I'm losing my mind

You can decide to change this anytime Butterfly, you can start today, right now. Make YOU the #1 priority in your life. We're ALL rooting for you!