I said bothered by. You said struggle with.
Same same.
The question remains, if God doesn't exist, as an atheist believes, why would talk of it, give you struggles?
Take the steps and substitute God for the power supply of your choice.
Spirit of the universe, mother nature.... Whatever.
Jedi it, "use the force"..... Seems to be a good alternative for a few AA members I know too.
It's only after going through with the process that you can actually make an informed decision based on the experience you have.
Kinda like never knowing if you would enjoy bungee jumping......... It's simply a matter of strapping on and taking the plunge...... After that..... You get to decide if you enjoyed it.