Great to meet you Alex. You've made a wonderful decision - and you found a great place for encouragement.
When I came here I'd been drinking all day. I couldn't imagine my life without it, even though it was bringing me nothing but misery. Reading and posting here really helped with the anxiety. We all understand what you're going through, and want to help. The first few days are uncomfortable, but once it's out of your system you can begin to heal.