Thanks guys.. I just feel so stupid to ever think I could moderate myself.... I finally realized I can not ever drink again.... but I really want to but cant no exception.. I got to twenty days once an felt great but one glass of booze sent me back. Then today I got a glimpse of myself in the store window an I look like a fat bloated slob who needs her hair done.... I cant believe my knees are rubbing together again. I quit a few months ago an was at almost 50 days an lost 18 pds... how did I gain it back that quick.... booze an food in that order ..