Hi and welcome PalmBranch
you'll find all kinds of drinkers and addicts here - I ended up an all day everyday drinker - did that for 5 years...
I got out of the loop - I stopped drinking, found support here, made changes and set about rebuilding my life.
It took a while but I have peace and serenity like I've never known before.
I spent decades trying to fill a void in me, trying to escape reality. When I stopped trying to fill it, and heal it instead, things got better )
good to have you with us
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