rougelily

I talked to my ABF about how I feel about the drinking. He was totally lucid and for once not combative. In fact he was sweet and even apologized for upsetting me so much.

I am not a fool though. I know this is the calm before the next storm. He will drink again. He will make it all my fault for being upset about it. Somehow it will be my fault he did something stupid because he isn't smart enough to not use my laptop or tablet to look at porn or message other girls.

The rollercoaster...its a horrible ride. Just as I start to feel comfortable with making the move to tell him "recovery or I'm leaving" he turns into the sweet guy I fell in love with. This is the way it always goes. I get super angry, we have it out, we make up, and he is sober for a few months because I stand my ground. Then he falls off the wagon, the cycle starts over. No wonder I feel so crazy all the time and have anxiety. My emotions are wrecked.

Is this normal behavior for an A?