Hang in there hatbox. The devil wants you to be using. He wants the addiction to be in control. Not God. I am sorry that you arent getting the support you need. Like hope said, focus on yourself and let everyone else deal with it. You need to take care of you right now. It doesnt sound like anyone else is, so who will do it? You do have support here. Find some AA meetings, you will find support there too. Make new friends who will help you. An AA meeting would be the best place to find sober friends.
Good luck and keep up the great work.
Jeff