Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
There you go. More important than trying to understand why you relapse is understanding why you are failing at sobriety. And if you are doing the things that support your decision to not drink, then you are bound to return to your old fallback position...drinking.
You aren't hopeless, but you are certainly unfocused on staying sober. Get that focus and commitment back.
You are correct. I don't really know where to begin. There are several things that I was doing in the beginning of my sobriety that I no longer do:
1.) Attending meetings almost daily
2.) Reading my sobriety literature daily
3.) Hanging around sober friends
4.) Staying honest
I think a good place to start is to commit to meetings again, because not attending regular meetings feels like the first bad decision I made, which helped pave the way for my relapse.