Very willing to learn to live without alcohol. I know it is a lie. I work full time and my son plays soccer at a high level. Most of my time is spent carting him where he needs to go. I have alternating weekends that I am free and this is generally when I do my heavy drinking. However, it's been creeping into the work week. I have started to crochet which is a great past time. It's the loneliness that is hard. Sometimes I feel like there is no one to talk to that cares. I stayed in an abusive relationship so long that I am not even whole anymore. I am broken and I can't escape the loneliness because I am a complete mental mess inside. It's not apparent on the outside.