I will never go back but I am missing him so much (still crying)...but I'm feeling stronger every day.
Jodie...
Another thing that you should remember is that Borderlines are able to wield a lot of power through sex. In fact, it's their most powerful weapon. The way they use it is so that they have control over you.
That may be why, in part, why he's still got his hooks in you.
My AXGF was
tremendous in the wrapper. Just outstanding. But when she did what she did, I just recognized that aspect of our relationship as something integral to her Borderline makeup. It had nothing to do with love and everything to do with her trying to keep me under her thumb. It worked...for a while...
We can go on and on about Borderline pathology, Bipolar Disorder, cocaine addiction, etc...but the bottom line with him remains the same. He's as sick as they get.
So, grieve if you must, but allow yourself to know what you know...