Thank you all for your responses! It's nice to be back. I see now that my post has some contradictory statements. I guess what I'm saying is that everything in my life is good right now, but even though I'm having long stretches between drinking, it takes up a lot more of my thinking process than I would like it to, and that's what drives me crazy! If that makes sense. and I see a bad pattern where the stretches between drinking are becoming shorter and shorter. So I'm starting today after convincing myself for one more glass of wine last night. I don't even enjoy drinking anyway And proved that to myself over those 8 months. That "fun" relaxed feeling doesn't even occur anymore. So, I'm just going to focus on being happy and healthy, and there really is no room for booze in that equation!