Originally Posted by
DK3 
That flicker is gone for me. Sober or drunk. I hate myself. I'm a loser beyond belief. I will drink until Monday and then see what happens.
It sounds like you're in a lot of pain right now, and for that I'm very sorry to hear DK3.
In spite of the fact that you are in pain and drinking, you still brought yourself to SR where you know support exists. And that really does show an inner strength you should be proud of.
Please be safe and remember you can decide at any moment to pour the rest out and start living a healthy life.
Best wishes to you.