That's your disease and AV telling you that want to drink again, Briar.
See this process through; truly work your sobriety efforts and recovery.
You will come to the place, Briar, where you won't think about drinking, where you truly won't want to drink, where you really love sobriety, where if in the fire it's one of the things you will grab to save.
I never thought I'd reach that day but when I did - wow.