Swift, my heart goes out to you and I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I am currently trying to rebuilt myself after leaving my xabf. The person that I had become in the wake of his alcoholism has left me broken and in a million pieces. But I continue to work on me every day and I know I will make it through this, just like I know you will make it through too. I know it seems impossible now but please know that you will come through all of this much stronger.
(((Hugs)))